[damycles]

I Dyed My Hair and People Cannot Seem to Fucking Deal:
2/9/342

Sometimes I wonder what the fuck I was thinking when I got up in the morning. Right now I'm wondering what the fuck I was thinking when I got up in the morning.

Black Hair dye just sitting in the corner of my god damn bathroom, for months. I bought it a while back never really intending to use it. They all keep telling me, oh you look so old, oh that white hair's not doing you any favors, god damn, of course, I fucking know that. I swear to god, for years I've been holding out. Just thinking, oh if I get less stressed maybe the pigments will come back but, I guess it was time to get real. My stress levels are never going down. But I still missed my black hair. It's been so long.

Next thing I knew I'm coming out with a fresh set of black flowing locks. Guess I'm finally matching with Wojtek, James, and Magnus. For some reason, I didn't think this was gonna be a big deal. I mean people change their hair color all the time and it's not like black's a "bold" color or anything. I was fucking wrong.

Work was work if they thought something, they sure as hell made sure not to say it to my face. The square was a different animal though. You have all these mother fuckers staring at my god damn head as if my damn hair was gonna walk off on its own and do a dance routine. Well, actually some people were pretty nice about it. They said it made me look, younger. I'm not old. But them saying it sort of felt nice in a sense.

Then there was a fucking asshole who called my hair a god damn mop. A MOP. I swear to god I fucking hate wise asses like that. Didn't even have the fucking balls to stick around either, nah he just HAD to fucking say it while he was walking down the streets. Fucking hit and run insults are the fucking worst. God that just made me pissed off. Still, it wasn't just him. Atlas didn't seem to keen on it at first either. On the other hand, Caerus was pretty cool with it. He walked off with that green haired Felidae science gal who's been showing up lately. Makes me wonder... But it's hard to say. Caerus, that man's both single, and not single at the same time.

Still, there wasn't much going on at the square at that point so I just decided to make the rounds on Magnus again. He's been riding even more enthusiastically ever since I've decided to "match his aesthetic". I guess having better chances to show off is what motivates him the best. Still, eventually, I ended up at Varren's Cantina, again. However, there were actually people in front of said Tavern.

Saya and this other gal who I've been seeing around the place but haven't really talked too much with. Has a penchant for black cloaks and hoods so not the most "bold" sensibilities in terms of fashion but nothing offensively terrible either. In a way, it kind've fits though since that also serves to describe their personality. It's one of those times where if I were to call them "nice" I wouldn't be sure if I was saying it as a compliment or an accidental insult. Like they're "just nice" or something like that. But perhaps that's just because I haven't really gotten to know them yet. I guess I could describe a lot of people I know as "just nice" for that exact same reason.

Well, they were on a "girl's night out" but they were willing to let me be an "honorary girl" which, happens more pretty often now that I think about it. God, I wonder what that says about my personality. We went for brunch, they had some pancakes while I went with a classic, chicken and waffles tacos. Well, at least I thought it was a classic. Clearly, they had no god damn idea what the hell I was eating. They're giving me that look again. I fucking hate that look. It's the "I don't understand so you're just a weirdo" look. No matter how much I try to explain that look is never going to go away. I feel so out of place.

Eventually, Saya's brother showed up. He seems, cool, at least in a traditional sense of the word. We went off to shop after that. Weapons shopping that is, which was the one kind of shopping I really fucking wished we weren't going to do. They were just browsing the wears, most for the girl in the black cloak, albeit she wasn't really feeling it with any of the items on display. Eventually, she just decided to buy a weapons part to try and get her blade refurbished from Taneal, who just happened to show up at the time, and called it a day. At the same time, Saya was looking for equipment as well. Looks like she's preparing to get back into combat because she's being harassed by an asshole. At least that's as far as I was able to ascertain the situation. Honestly, I'm, worried, about how far this "fight" she's preparing for might go. Still, Saya's sensible so I'm not too worried. Regardless, she and her brother went to train and well, I was just left to wander about a bit more after that.

Honestly, I'm still kinda torn over this black hair thing. I mean it's the color it "should" be but I guess I've gotten used to the white now. And I guess a lot of other people have gotten used to it as well. But, at the same time, I've already made the change. This is supposed to be a big thing for me. So if I just, change it back right away it'd feel kind've cheap. I guess I'm sticking with black for now then. Fucking hell why am I writing this so late at night I have work tomorrow. I need a drink.